Unravelling

“I have become undone.”

…did someone pull the thread on your sweater?
…and then did you walk away?

Are you now lying naked?

unravelled and exposed
wondering…

how did I get to this place?

your fears and doubts
climb out of your eyes and tumble
across your cheeks
creating trails on your skin
so bare and empty
waiting.

The same skin shakes
underneath the sheer blanket
of coldness
yearning to be touched by a warmth
by a hope.

But nothing comes.

And so you lie there
stripped of all that you were
or could possibly be,
each moment stolen from your thoughts
as an echo of what used to be
of how you used to feel.

Unnerving vacancy
seeps into your pours
and sweeps through your veins
and the rush…

seizes your lungs
grasping and squeezing
leaving you breathless
gasping for some semblance
of understanding

But the stark reality
sends you reeling
circles within circles
spinning
and
swirling
the dizziness consumes you
though you’re completely still

to close your eyes
would be glorious and thrilling
but to trust yourself that much…
would be danger in itself

and the string that once held you together,
the tendrils of who you once were
fall gently across your nakedness
revealing the imperfections
the inadequacies
the hindrances
that you once kept within you
hidden from the world
even you.

they mark you
searing into that gorgeous shell
you tried to protect
tried to keep from falling apart

and everything keeps falling
falling

falling

falling

the wind is crisp in this descent
freezing your bones
chilling the barrenness
of your soul

and you’ve forgotten
the safety of the self
as you lie naked on the floor
shuddering in defeat.

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